The dotted line
I was beginning to feel settled in my search for a new home, resigned to the fact it would take us a while to find something that met my criteria, and then it happened – we found it. In retrospect the hunt was a whirlwind, a frenzy – we are only in the third week […]
Downsizing
The house hunting adventure I’ve embarked upon this month has stirred up some unfamiliar emotions and shed light on thoughts I didn’t know I was thinking – I feel like I’m mid-section into a learning curve again. I came into this adventure reluctantly, uncertain – I didn’t know what the hell I was shopping […]
Going Through the Motions
I’m trying to pull the spirit of Christmas out of myself and out of the boxes scattered on the playroom floor – everything feels dusty and I am out of practice. I am resisting the season even as carols play and colorful lights dot the landscape. I admit the Christmas spirit within me started to […]
A Christmas Lightbulb Moment
I’ve been dragging my heels and hanging onto November with my fingernails – doing everything in my power not to face December, but here it is. November gave me the slip on Friday and on Saturday my family pushed me into the festive season like a kid tossed into the deep end of the pool […]
Getting Real
I’m not treading water anymore, I’ve been swimming in my archives lately, paddling around and taking a closer look at memories that have been muddied by grief. I’ve been reliving the days leading up to the end; the end of life as I knew it. The strange thing is I’m not drowning in tears as […]
De-cluttering
I’ve been cleaning closets and sorting through things that haven’t seen the light of a day for years. I’ve been finding a lot of old memories; cards, notes, trinkets; and having a wave of nostalgia I haven’t felt in a long time. The corners of this house are stacked with memorabilia, a lot of […]
Solving the case of the missing muse
Where do you even start to look for an imaginary friend? Especially one with infinite places to hide. A muse is a trickster, it has no form or actual substance, it is lighter than air. It can appear in an instant and disappear just as fast. It’s easy to take a muse for granted when […]
Giving Thanks
So it’s thanksgiving and I’ve got a hundred things to be thankful for, I’m making a conscious effort to count them and yet… there is a black curtain hanging in front of gratitude this year – a barrier separating me from all the blessings in my life I know I don’t have a monopoly on […]
Apples and sauce
Our eldest granddaughter is eight years old. Every September, for as far back as her memory can take her, she and her Papa have made applesauce with the apples harvested from the tree in our backyard. It has been a tradition, a date they both looked forward to all summer as they watched the apples […]