‘It’s the Season
My halls have been decked for over two weeks – I jumped into the holiday season with two feet this year. I haven’t seen much of what is on display for four years – I packed my last real Christmas away just prior to opening a box filled with so much grief it’s taken these […]
Another 2 birds/same stone
A seasonal snippet from the Storyworth project. Catalog Shopping Santa brought my younger sister a rabbit for Christmas once – she named him Peter. I don’t know what happened to Peter after the excitement of Christmas morning was over but I still have the transistor radio he brought to me that year. Christmas in our house […]
An Unexpected Gift
I woke up this morning with a dream teetering between sleep and consciousness. Dreams for me are always fleeting – I rarely remember them. This morning’s dream was different – it wasn’t so much a dream as it was a memory being relived, a memory of something I hadn’t thought about for years. It left […]
A Covid Christmas
It’s December – Christmas is around the corner and hell bent to make an appearance, pandemic be damned. Covid might have locked us up but the jolly holly will not be denied. The world feels different this year, indifferent. I am indifferent too. My Christmas decorations are still stashed in the crawl space beneath my […]
It’s almost here…
Last year at this time I was rattling around a family home that didn’t hold a family anymore – just me and two dogs wondering if we should even bother with Christmas. I was lonely beyond words, sad in a fashion unbecoming and lost – in short, I was a mess. A lot has happened in […]
Nine sleeps
Like a stealth cat, Christmas has been sneaking up on me. It’s being cautious this year, mindful that my balance is still precarious. ‘Tis the season to make merry but too much merry can push a girl to tears. Christmas notoriously brings more grief than joy to a lot of people – loss is magnified by the […]
The secret
My granddaughters are having a race to see who can grow up the fastest and I wish they’d stop. I’d like to hold onto this moment for a little while longer, to keep them in the shadow of reality for a day or a year or two more. I’d like the magic of make believe […]
Surviving Christmas
Christmas arrived right on schedule despite the fact I’d had my foot on the brakes for weeks. It slipped into the house like an obligation and has fled almost as quickly. We set it up, put it out, ate it up and then got the hell out of Dodge. It’s done and I’m glad. We […]
Coughs, Candles and the Christmas Cold
The first gift of Christmas arrived a couple of days ago. Sometime between midnight and four a.m. a cold germ snuck up the stairs and tackled me while I slept. I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus and my voice sounds like a rusty gravel truck. Merry Christmas! I’m feeling sorry for myself […]
I believe….
I am not a radical thinker. Hell, I’m not even an original thinker. I like to think of myself as a collective thinker. I gather notions and stories and ponder them. I sift through opinions and sort values and arrange them into a pattern that suits me. I keep the good stuff and discard judgment. […]