Words of Wisdom
I’ve been stretching myself this summer, taking some brave steps on my own. Although I may not have actually turned a corner I think the corner is almost within eyeshot – just beyond the horizon, perhaps still blurred by the fog of fear but there in the distance waiting. All I need to do is […]
Promises kept
I had occasion recently to swear on a bible. I held the worn black leather book in my right hand and promised to tell the truth. To say I swore to tell the truth would be a stretch, but I do take a promise seriously. I’m not sure who actually bears witness to promises […]
Facebook reminders – a blessing and a curse
I bought myself flowers this week. This is not something I do on the regular or even on the odd occasion. I’ve rarely given flowers to me, I never needed to – I have been the recipient of hundreds of bouquets over the course of my life. I received flowers so often I think I got passé […]
Sometimes
Sometimes the curtain between me and grief rises – suddenly I’m in the spotlight and my heart breaks wide open – tossed into the throws of devastation all over again. Sometimes. I’ve been busy; settling in and down, making acquaintances, walking the dogs; busy doing the stuff of life. Sometimes I even let humor drive the […]
A Fresh Start
I’m not so much new to the area as I am new to my life – I’m meeting people who will only know who I am today; the widow has emerged, they will never meet the wife I used to be. It occurred to me this morning after I’d had a brief conversation with […]
Act three
The ocean was like glass yesterday morning, I noticed three kayakers and a guy on a paddle board in the distance – none of them seemed to disturb the water. I watched a few aggressive black birds trying to intimidate a lone eagle – ruffians, thugs – with one flap of the eagle’s enormous wings […]
As good as it gets
As the dust of this moving business starts to settle so too does the reality of what’s just happened. I’ve taken the leap and the net has not appeared – yet. The weather changed yesterday, sunshine gave way to grey skies and rain and I felt myself fall into a place I have been too […]
In the quiet of an evening
The dogs and I spent a quiet evening at home last night, the first of what I’m certain will be many once I get settled and things settle down. I sat on familiar furniture, surrounded by familiar things in an unfamiliar place. Although he has never walked in this front door I feel like he […]
Today I Choose Happiness
Although I’m feeling more settled with every passing day it still hits me in the face sometimes – this is where I live now, I’m never going home – and my heart aches. The aching is for something that doesn’t exist anymore and I try to put a lid on it before it has its […]
Eleven days in…
I’m feeling a little more settled every day – I’m still dealing with boxes and unpacking but making progress. I think I’m going to like this place a lot once I get used to the changes in my life. Trying to create a new routine for the dogs is proving a bit of a challenge. […]