The first draft….
I’m cross eyed and skeptical and nervous and enthused – a mixed bag of emotions. The first draft of Writing From the Wound is ready for its first reader and I’m excited and scared to death in the same breath.
I’ve asked one of my new neighbors to be the first reader. She doesn’t know my story nor has she read my blog – she is coming in cold. My hope is that she will be able to tell me if the story is there – it would be easy for someone who has been following along to fill in the holes, breeze over gaps in the story.
I’ve re-read these pages so often they don’t pack a punch anymore – I’m numb to the words. This has made the re-reading easier but has added to my insecurity as well. I talk myself in and out of confidence – my muse and my editor aren’t even speaking to each other anymore.
I’m going to sit on this draft for a bit – fight the urge to read it and edit it again until I get some feedback from my reader. This is tough, every time I’ve looked at a page I’ve tweaked it, reworked it – it’s been poked, plucked and primed until I’m not even sure I like it anymore.
I’m taking a big breath and pushing this baby out of the nest – it’s time for the first flying lesson.
Comments (8)
Congratulations Elva.
Mark – thank you
Anyone reading your words of the past year could not help but be touched. You have opened yourself up and written so eloquently. You’ll be glad in the end to have taken this step. Onward…
Wendy – thanks for the vote of confidence.
Yes big push. It’ll be great 🎶💥
Joyce – thank you, here’s hoping!
Elva you have written so eloquently, so feelingly, and with such raw emotion, that it touches the heart and soul of a reader. I can’t even begin to tell you how much you have reached out to me in so many ways…coping with loss and bereavement, hope, joy, rejuvenation, those little poignant moments of remembrance. It’s like you’ve dipped into a bowl of your life’s yesterday’s and when you’ve lifted your fingers out, they still retain a scent of emotions that will remain with you always.
Margaret – thank you for those beautiful words!