Six Months – A Drop in Forever
So many days I still find myself sitting in sorrow, acknowledging the ache in my heart and succumbing to this new reality. It feels like the penny of forever just dropped and shed a light on the hole in my life – the dark, deep, lonely hole. Sometimes I can’t muster the effort to shake […]
Within my dream a message
I can’t seem to shake that dream I had last week – I’ve been walking around with it in my pocket for days. The actual dream happened in a split second but was so vivid I can’t stop thinking about it. I saw him clearly, I felt his presence. The more I think about that […]
The problem with a sleepless night
I tossed and turned for most of the night last night – I worried the hell out of everything I could think of. I tried all the suggested tricks to fall asleep and the moon shone a spotlight on my efforts. I spun my tires on family, friends and finances. I fretted about the dogs, […]
Story and the evolution of us
Years ago I took a writing course titled “The Hero’s Journey” based on the book by Joseph Campbell. During the course I learned the recipe for storytelling and within that recipe I discovered something. The Heroes Journey is actually everybody’s journey – the story of each and every one of us. The reluctant hero called […]
Remembering
I awoke the other morning with a kiss still warm on my lips. The dream had been fleeting but the sensation lingered. I’d held his face between my hands, looked into his eyes and kissed him. Not a heated kiss, a gentle one – I tasted him. In that split second I felt him. I […]
A Tale of Two Elvas
My grandmother was fifty-four when my grandfather died. His was a sudden and unexpected death. He left behind a grieving widow and six devastated children. My mother used to share details of that tragic event with my brother and sisters and I every September on the anniversary of her father’s passing – it was a […]
Hindsight and Forgiveness
I would love to say I was the perfect, patient, loving spouse in those last few months of my husband’s life but the truth is I wasn’t. I was frustrated and angry and terrified. We didn’t know what the hell was going on and he and I were coming at the problem from two different […]
On my way
I was walking the dog this afternoon, the sun was shining and a fall breeze was pushing newly dried leaves across the sidewalk. I was lost in thought; visions of back to school and days of yore; when a motorcycle screeched to a stop at the corner. I’m not up on motorcycles, one looks much […]
Leaving a mark
I’ve been walking beaches, picking up shells, feeling the wind on my face and listening to the surf. I have been lulled by the sea. My mind has wandered and I have been touched by the vastness of time. Eternity makes a person feel small – eternity makes this day short and splendid and unique. […]
A Chink in my Armor
I know the exact moment I turned into a machine, the minute my emotions dulled and I began to just function. It was like I walked into a wall and it hurt like hell. I remember gasping, burying my face in my hands and slumping into myself with such force I could hardly breathe. But […]