Getting a handle on guilt
I must be feeling better I’m starting to reach out. I’m making phone calls and dates, setting goals and making plans. I’m looking to the future and I find that a bit surprising. I’ve had a few good days in a row – that’s not to say they have been days without tears, but crying […]
Senor Cinco and I
I took a step back into my old life last week – I did my Thursday afternoon volunteer shift at the aquarium. It felt strange and good. I love the aquarium, I find the dim galleries relaxing and the exhibits mesmerizing. Things are both familiar and new every time I visit. I haven’t done a […]
Meeting Max
My mind wanders while I’m walking my dogs. We take the same familiar route every day which makes it easy for me to fall into a thought and stay there while still putting on the miles. Sometimes I get lost in what I’m currently writing, sometimes I get lost in a memory and sometimes that […]
Time traveling
I drove my neighbor’s daughter to school the other day – to the same high school my children attended many years ago. The girl in the passenger seat could have been one of my own; tall, pretty and put together; she sent me back through time faster than she could say thanks for the ride. […]
Hello Spring
One half of the neighborhood is dressed up like a bridesmaid at a fussy wedding – all poof and froth. Trees are dripping in pastels, pink petals litter the streets. Lilacs are weighted in mauve. The other half is decked out for a Mexican fiesta. Rhododendrons exploding in techno color; vibrant reds, rich purples. Dandelions […]
Mother’s Day – every day
I just realized that Sunday is Mother’s Day — and like every day it made me stop and think about mine. As a child I was stuck on my mother like dried food on a high chair. She had to work really hard to un-stick me. Even after I became a mother myself she had […]
Trying Again — Setting an example
Whether we like to admit it, or not, we are setting an example every day, all day. We are showing the world our colors. In our successes and failures, we are on display. It’s easy to set a good example when things are going well, success is like that, it leads to more of the […]
International Women’s Day 2018
It has taken me a long time to find a voice and the confidence to use it. I’ve always held opinions, but for years I was busy just holding hands. Little hands, old hands. Now those little hands have grown up, the old hands have passed away, and I find myself with time on my […]
A little reflection
It’s the first week of March and spring is putting out feelers. Are we ready? Hell yeah. Much of Canada is still nestled under a blanket of snow but here in the most southest, westest corner of our country Mother Earth is whispering secrets of what is to come. I’ve been noticing spring bulbs in […]
Leaving an Impression — The Year of “Yes”
Our children were quite young when my mother died, six, eight and ten years old. Not babies by a long stretch but young enough to only be left with sketchy memories of their grandmother. Thankfully these memories are good ones. Immediately following her recovery from the surgery that confirmed her fate, my mom began to […]